Actually I don’t. But I’m frustrated. Like anything, the better you get, the more you realize how far you are from being where you want to be. The more you know, the more you know you don’t know. It’s the same with guitar. I would think I achieved a new level of wicked guitarist god-ness, and then realize I’m a chump.
This is a healthy process. Photography, like any art, is not the spontaneous result of God-given-middle-of-the-night inspiration. I often image songwriters accidentally penning masterpieces drunk or in some sub-conscious stupor. This has been, no doubt, the process of some geniuses – Dostoyevsky comes to mind – but it certainly is not the norm. Art is the outcome of a long process of self-doubt and courageous reinvention. Tomorrow I may be worse, but in a year I will be better.